I guess I can account for my sudden personal outburst to this. And the other kind of bleeding. Worry does work wonders. But I think I'll skip the Usrah woman cos I just have no time. (Yah, no time and yet I just watched LOTR in the day! For the 3rd time thank you very much.) I know...if I don't have time I'm supposed to make time right? But now I guess I can beg to differ cos there are countless things to do and countless things to anticipate that sometimes you just forget the time. And thus I have a very simple excuse for not going to the doctor. Period.

I saw the pictures that we took for all the jalan Rayas in the world. Okay not in the world but for this year's Raya. We all look great (yes, very..so ask Limah and Semah cos I don't have the negatives!) and I'm going to ask them to develop some for me, especially the one in Nafisah's room. *evil grin* Posing maut sia. The first posing maut I have ever taken in all my life.

Speaking of life, I realise that this particular year is THE year whereby I lose my adolescence title and start to embrace the adulthood officially. Though I already am holding adult responsibilities. Bah! It feels weird. Slightly. Not cos of the responsibilites but like being an adult officially. Okay, actually I'm not exactly looking forward to being that but I am looking forward to being able to watch what the pakcik is able to watch that I can't. Hmmm..sounds complicated. Aight, skip that.

My dad will start to work again tomorrow. Or later rather. Which is a good sign but on the other hand, it means I'll have to stop acting like a pampered brat and go to school myself again. Like I did the previous year. Uhuh. Is it so wrong to get a lift nowadays???

(calmer)

He was in yesterday night. Rather took me by surprise cos I thought he'd been busy with the aftermath of exams. Hmmm...I guess the cousin enlightened him on my finally taking a peek at him and perhaps he wanted to satisfy his curiosity by asking me various inter-related questions. Like as if I'm that dumb. I'm slow yes, and stupid, double yes, but I can perfectly well use my 5 senses if not all 6. (The extra sense comes from the natural ability as a woman in being able to perceive rather well.) Initially it was all formal and stiff and rather polite but after a while he loosened up and delved straight to what he had wanted to know...which shall remain right here in my head. I knew there were that fear and insecurity and they were bugging him though he tried not to show it. Tried to act nonchalant I see. Ah...I can see all through the tricks cos I'm of the exact same kind. Plus, I'm wiser. Hardy har har.

Okay, I'm still considering other options regarding this DLand. Cheerios!